January 2010
59 posts
Wow i actually thought you would have forgotten.
But you didn’t and now i feel bad.
Waking up to a call from you, going outside in pitch black darkness to get reception.
Thinking i fucked it all up, and you tell me it was cute.
Yesss!
Anniversary.
I think i straightened my hair every single day of year 11.
Who the fuck am i attempting to not look gross for.
I give up, I’m tying it back everyday.
*tumbleweed*
yeahh
Back to school today, it was enjoyable.
Australia day.
Lol.
Existance.
Waiting for everything, for nothing?
I wish you could see all this is for you.
I figure if i stare into those eyes long enough
ill know what to say, i don’t, i never do.
It just envelops me further into a pool of desire and hurt.
When im sitting here at home,
Every second spent without you is a second wasted.
“It feels like something has been wasted, and I am fading Time is growing against me as I grow tired of being Just another soul spent searching for something inside,”
From my head.
Who cares anymore, does anybody really care about anything other than their own personal interests and agendas? Has anyone ever? Is it even humanly possible?
Sure you can be passionate about something or someone, but is it not just to make your own life more livable.
Selfless acts and thoughts happen, but the falseness in our modern society is cloudy.
Today was shit.
lol.
we found out the guy who was recording us was also a /b/tard.
It was a good day.
Dead.
Recording tomorrow at nine, excited, but not about waking up so early.
Process.
Apart from family.
There’s two people that sincerely care about me.
I cant copy paste the first note from the first person because it is too long and too personal, but its legit.
The second piece of evidence from the second person is a text message i just got.
“Hey you :) are you okay? I’m worried about you and your sleeping habits and the fact that i haven’t spoken to...
I just finished reading it, its ironic how you...
There’s nothing i can write right now to explain anything, ill talk to you in person.
I am happy you took the time to write all that.
To put your mind at rest though, both the blogs you mentioned are not about you.
See you soon.
People should watch 'Zeitgeist, the Movie'
Even if you don’t believe anything you watch, its still an eye opener and will make you think.
Last night I slept in a sleeping bag for the...
Shit was so weird.
So syked.
Found out today our band is playing a show with Comeback Kid soon.
Listen
Entering the silent saga.
Population us.
I just took everything off my bedroom walls.
Starting a new stage.
Hello.
Excuse the grammar, spelling and over use of commas.
Listen
Negativity.
The utter fucking heartbreak of coming to school everyday to a ‘best friend’ that didn’t show an ounce of what you showed them. Sacrificing other friendships so i could focus on that one, the one where i am left sitting most days by myself while he spends lunch and recess talking with his girlfriend. Everyday coming to school and making him laugh and have a good time, all to...
Theres not much I would rather do past 1am
Than watch foreign films on sbs.
I love the mystic of not knowing anything about what will be on, and not being able to look up information on the Internet about it which i always try. (Sometimes its annoying, but it being unknown gives it a special feeling.)
I love the accents and reading the subtitles.
I love how all of them are shot so well and in such unique places.
I love being in...
I replaced the word 'hate' with 'dislike', its too...
Fucking dislike vain people, extremely dislike people who are up themselves.
Unless you are contributing to the greater good of mankind, you have no reason to think you’re better or of more value than any moral human being on this planet.
So many people around here with their heads too far up their butts to realise whats going on around them.
Fucking reality.
Futile.
I left for the beach a few minutes ago, with sunblock on and all the gear.
But i could only bring myself to stand on the dunes and stare at the ocean.
I asked, what am i doing with my exsistance?
What am i doing here?
I rarely swim in the ocean, would it have been a waste of time swimming today?
Or is it a waste of time sitting here infront of a screen? Like every other day.
It is probably...
I just removed my one and only blog on myspace,...
Because it was dated, written when i was more shit at spelling then i am now, and had some stuff i had written that is not in the least true to me anymore. (i guess that last one covers dated, oh well)
What happened?
I love it when i open up msn and your window pops up straight away.
Now days, it still happens but the length is barely enough to scroll down.
